Lucy and another poem

gold and tiny.
the dependability of your hard round head between my fingers
your smile and your small wings
i found you in the street, unnoticed, but shining
and i took you joyfully and put you warmly in my pocket.
i keep you there and you keep me safe.
oh little lucy.
oh little lucy.

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doing lots of things. making lots of dance. meeting lots of people. people people. it doesnt interest me what you do nor what sign you are.
you are. you are.
you are an other
among others.
you a warrior too, no? like me. I have fought impassioned battles.
and we put our weapons down and reach for each other instead.

And you know, these days... the tears come.
and my fire of insecurity makes a well-lite room.
and within that light, i see my love for myself.
and my love for you. it is also there, in this room.

room. room for what. making room. making dances. making room for dance and dancing for rooms. and teaching English for rooms.
for food.
for you. and for this light.
for this fire of insecurity and gives so much light.

the primitiveness of fire. the fires we built in the night with poision oak.
and your lungs swelled and mine did not
and when the fire brings you to the edge. and I stand there at the edge and it makes me drop my pelvis.
my knees cough and air comes in.
and i can live there on the edge like this, with breathing knees.
because we do it anyway. we are there. we are all there.

2011

Coffee, banana, almonds, mosquito bites, fog, christmas belly, inner fog, anticipation.

thursday...
friday,
monday,
...
dad's birthday,
...
lecture,
...
workshops,
paid,
pay,
work,
dance everyday project continues,
proud,
angry,
scared... angry,
jealous,
birthday,
dates,
workshop,
not my birthday,
paid,
pay,
perform,
save,
tired,
work hard,
bi-continental,
something... anything,
hump,
closer,
jealous,
proud,
sad,
angry,
closer,
heat,
sunshine,
dates,
PDED continues,
crisis,
blast off.